Life Is Amazing
It is kind of a dorky observation, but sometimes I am amazed that this baby is ALIVE. One day he didn’t exist, and the next day he did. One day I had only to take care of myself for him to continue being, and the next day I had to assume all kinds of separate tasks to care for him because he is now here.
Truly, I am amazed at his tenacity. He goes to sleep and then later wakes up. He suffers through my bumbling and smiles at me still. I ponder about how completely helpless he is. Human infants can do almost nothing to ensure their own survival. And yet, he hangs on. He fights. He reminds. He persuades. He clings to life. It’s truly amazing that any of us survives infancy.
There are a million things we do for Asher every day. When I was small, my parents did those million things for me, day after day. Yours did them for you. Amazing.
Some parents are crappy parents. Some are pathetic and ill-equipped at the beginning and gradually get better, honing their parenting skills and figuring shit out. Other parents are great at caring for cute babies but are sucky with kids and even worse with teens. But even kids of shitty parents often survive! Wow.