Mixed-Up and On Edge

I’m feeling a lot of feelings. I’m also sick. Today I feel better, but sort of like I’m on another planet and all my normal emotions and thoughts are are being altered by a too-thin atmosphere. When I think about my dad’s surgery tomorrow, I have to fight back the impulse to hyperventilate.

As soon as I finish writing this post, I have to edit like the wind. I hope my work will consume me today and keep my thoughts and feelings in lockdown.

I had a ton of fun on Saturday and during the party on Saturday night. It was so freeing to spend time with Ian and friends. I needed to be around my people. I needed to make new friends—I finally met Agent Sassy! I felt wild and good during those few hours.

2 Responses to “Mixed-Up and On Edge”

  • lunagirl35
    October 27, 2008 at 7:29 pm

    Sometimes work is a good distraction from the stress. I know it’s hard to feel so out of control. Hang in there.

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  • sarabellae
    October 27, 2008 at 10:45 pm

    Thanks. Yes, having work right now is very good. Today I told myself, “This time tomorrow, it will be done.” Except now I get to say that again tomorrow, too.

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