Where Am I?
This morning I feel fairly mixed up and adrift. I have plenty to do, so that’s not the problem. I’m sitting here asking myself, what’s up with me today? Where am I going? Why? If you asked me right now, “How are you?” I’m not sure I could answer.
I feel a list coming on …
Good Things
* I have work
* I have nibbles on future work
* I’m healthy, Lucas is healthy, Ian is hopefully getting better
* My folks are vacationing in Mexico this week
* I saw some friends this weekend (FCL, GrlFury, Kelly, Holly, and Dakini and Thaemos very briefly)
* Ian finished two classes yesterday. He has one more National class before he gets an honest to god break—the first in … 8 months, I think.
* We get two days off this week. Well, Ian and Lucas will. I’ll probably work too.
* I don’t have to go to two Thanksgiving dinners. We bailed on RoRo and Nana. (The flip side is that I feel guilty about it.)
* We have Lucas’s first parent-teacher conference tomorrow morning, which should be both interesting and enlightening.
* I listened to a wonderful service yesterday about gratitude, miracles, and grace. I must endeavor to concentrate on this stuff some more and maybe the raincloud over my head will blow away.
Bad Things
* I’m exhausted; Ian’s exhausted; Lucas is in need of some serious family time.
* Ever-present money stress
* I don’t want to move out of my office (because of baby)
* Our schedules over the next 7-8 months don’t look like they will be any easier/healthier/saner
* Nothing to do but continue to slog through it
